i have this weird self esteem problem where i hate myself yet i still think i’m better than everyone else
(Source: kingofhyrule)
What if I never forget you?
I’ve made every effort to attempt to remove you from my life. I deleted you from Facebook, your number, I don’t go to church if I know you’ll be there. I never see you or hear from you and yet, you’re somehow always there. It’s really frustrating actually. It comes out of nowhere; all of a sudden I’m reminded of you. A smell or someone’s laugh or a song, and you’re in my head. And I can’t help but wish things were different.
I hate it. I hate thinking about you, and missing you, and still being attached. I try to remind myself how you screwed me over, how I deserve better. I have been fortunate enough to have been given someone better than you, and I know that. He is everything I need and I am so lucky. But in the back of my mind I still think about you and I’m worried that’s never going to go away.
